A.W.O.L Deep Thoughts About The End

This 7 inch from a French Hardcore band befriended with the Belgian scene and H8000 scene, holds a special place in my heart. I acquired a copy on black way back in 1998. I don’t even remember how or where I got it. But what I do remember is that I bought it for the huge cave on the cover. I was immediately drawn into the atmosphere of being in that cave. Maybe I got it at a show in Brugge, I am not sure any more. Or maybe I’ve seen them perform with Vitality at the old Casino in Koksijde. My memory is blurred. I was only six- or seventeen, so I can forgive myself not remembering. The fact that I merely bought it for the cover art doesn’t mean that I was disappointed in the music. I listened to this 7 inch in my bedroom numerous times.
Although I was a lot more positive than the lyrics might presume, they were a precursor for a later moment in time. I could get the meaning objectively by just reading the lyrics. But later the pain became my reality. I danced in my bedroom on the music and my parents did not fully understand what was going on. They said they just tolerated my music taste but they didn’t support it or liked it.

The record is called “Deep Thoughts About The End” and is a 45rpm with two songs. The A-side has the song “The Last Scream” and the B-side has the song “Psychopathia”. The songs did a lot for me both for the inner and outer self, although nowadays it lessened.

As always back then, in pre-internet times, there were no download or streaming services in order to be sure you liked the music. The only thing you had was a thanks list from the band members. There you could find out to what scene they belonged and to what bands they were befriended with. Then you assumed that the mentioned band from the thanks list were equally as good and then you mail ordered those bands. This thanks list is one of those list I have read so many times, I learned about other bands, their crews and so on… You can see that Bob and Vitality is almost on top of the list.

It’s super cool to find a copy on blue vinyl almost 20 years after getting my initial copy. The label who released this is called Braveheart Records and is from the H8000 area. All of their limited coloured editions are on the same clear blue vinyl. At least those I know of. You have the Instinct 7 inch on blue and the split between One Last Sin and Withdrawn on blue vinyl. The guy of this label also did a zine. I have one issue in my collection by the way.